When will this feeling go away…
I’m so stupid. I’m so naive. I’m so fucking stupid…
When will I learn… Love doesn’t exist. At least not for me.
It never gets old 🌇🏤🌆 (at Philadelphia City Hall)
It really is. It’s time to call it a loss. So what if you were the center of my world for over a year. It happens. We take time to open up to people. We take time to know a person’s every detail. We fall. We fall harder everyday. We work past hardships, like fighting and distance. We hold on, because we see something worth holding on to. We see a person who loves us. A person who we feel is worthy of our trust and vulnerability….
But people aren’t always who we think they are. People are liars. People are selfish. People are cowards…
And when you find someone who doesn’t love you, and only you… When you find someone who lies and doesn’t keep promises…. When you find someone who takes from you, but gives to someone else… It’s time to let go.
And that’s just what I’m going to do.
This hurts so much… It feels like a knife is being jabbed into my chest 10 thousand times, over and over again.
I’m nothing. I’m worth nothing. I have given my everything and it was worth absolutely nothing.
I’m completely numb. I want to rip my skin open and just feel every ounce of physical pain… Just so my heart can stop hurting. I want to watch the blood… Just to keep my mind off of all of the thoughts running through my head. What was a lie? What was the truth? Was there any truth?
I’m so stupid. I’m so stupid. I’m so fucking stupid.
I want to throw up.